omg...

im back after been away.too many changes that has happened to me.

im married,and im so happy rite now.i endup wit her.at last my dream came true!..its da best that happened to me in my entire life.


im being a normal person now,get paid working at a telco company


lifes been great for me.n very chellenging to.none the less,i've got wit me so im being stronger.

New Year...A new Beginning...a New ChapTer In mY liFe....

Salam Blog....
hah....i know i hav'nt wrote like in years already, but since its 010110...why not i start over again...

gone with da wind 2009 and all its memories, experience and emotions...

hope this new year would be my turning point to be better for myself, family, my angel and my biz...hope to learn the lesson made through those bad experiences, choices,results and bad decisions i've made last year and years before...

i would want to be better in many expect...life n spiritually....

may this year would be a memorable year for me.....insyaallah...

Thank Ya All...

Assalammualaikum...

Pergh...leh tahan lama tak bkak blog...

First of all aku nak ucapkan Thank You sesangat la byk pd semua yg wish Happy Birthday kat aku....Aku sangat menghargainya...Aku sangat2 appreciate smua...trutama kepada Sayangku NB yang sangat2 aku hargai n sayangi...kerana kasih sayangmu itu sangatku sangat bernilai buat aku yg tak best nie...syg, thanks for da gift...really made me feel confident and harum....gucci tu...ngeee.tapi syg, da best gift was u....u being wit me for da past and present...

n to all my friends, tak kisah kawan biz ker, kwn skola ker, kawan U ker, kowang sume mmg da best...Yang buat aku terharu ialah, kwn2 biz n sayang ku NB buat surprise celeb...kat ioi pas men boling....it was a memorable day...i will remember it until i die...sume kawan2 aku yg aku really anggap penting ada, syuk, is , daus, ida, khaidir, henry, ashuwad, sume ar....

Atara wishes yg aku leh share adalah, aku nak naik C. marquis secepat mngkin...hopefully bln nie...n hopefully dlm taun nie, preferably bln 6 jd Mq .aku harap aku dapat jd seorang BF yg bagus, jd anak yg bertanggungjwb n bntu family.kan best taun nie dapat tukar pe yg ptut.....bli keta ker, umah ker...amin...

pape pn, thanks all...love ya all...

paling utama...I Really Love u so much Sayang...MMMMMUUAAHHH!

Pejuang Impian

Lagu yg byk bagi aku inspirasi even bila byk masalah melanda...

Amy - Akulah Pejuang

Bintang-bintang berkerlipan
Indah dipandang
Bagaikan kilauan impian
Dimata seorang pejuang

Walau jauh namunkan tetap kelihatan
meruntun hati semangat seorang pejuang
jiwa meronta tanpa merasa ketakutan
akulah pejuang, pejuang impian

pahit maung, jatuh bangun
ku tetap bertahan
biar perpanas dan berhujan
demikian di harapan

biarpun jauh namun tetap aku genggam
takkan meruntun semangat untuk ku terus berjuang
jiwa membara tanpa merasa ketakutan
aku lah pejuang, pejuang impian

SORRY SAYANG!.....

sayang, kenapa u tak cakap pape bila i tanya....dat sunday i msg u,tanya hows things..u ok jer...then tetiba bila i tanya u awal isnin...u tnjk perasaaan...cakap i mcm2....ape nie syg....i kan dah cakap, wat ever happen, i will be there for u...even if i bz skali pun.tapi u ignore n buat lg...i tau u tanak susahkn i...tapi da prob is when u tak cakap, then u salahkn i plak i wasnt there for u.
bila i tanya u kata i did nothing for u...u blame keadaan yg i takde tu....

yes i was angry coz tetiba jer u salahkn i...i rasa cam u saje jer nak cari salah i...


pape pn lagu nie mmg suits me rite ar kot...

HEARTBREAKER

Look out
Look out
Look out

Where it's at (Where it's at)
I know karma's comin' to pay me back (Pay me back)
I'm with the sweetest thang that's on the map (On the map)
I broke her heart in 30 seconds flat (In 30 seconds flat)

Now how did I (How did I)
Just how did i become that kinda guy (Kinda guy)
To look at girl and lie right in their eye (Right in their eye)
My momma told me Willy that ain't right (Boy, no that ain't right)

I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break ya
b-b-b-b-break it baby
Look baby
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
(baizura) You're a heartbreaker (x2)
You're a heart
(zayd) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a
(Both:) heart
(Zayd) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

Where she go (Where she go)
I got some things I gotta let her know (Let her know)
To fix the love now it's impossible (It's impossible)
But baby, baby if we take it slow (If we take it slow)
We can make it work (Make it work)
We just can't throw the love down in the dirt (Right in the dirt)
You probably thinkin' I'm a fuckin' jerk
'Cause the way I let you down it made you hurt (I didn't mean to make you hurt)

I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break ya
b-b-b-b-break it baby
Look baby
I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
You're a heart
(Zayd:) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a
(Both:) Heart
(Zayd:) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

(BaiZura:) Lets break it down
((Zayd:) Lets break it down) (x7)
(Both:) Lets break, b-b-b-break it down

(Baizura:) You're a heartbreaker (x4)
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker (x2)
I'm a heart
I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a heart
I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

Sayangku Baizura

Arienie aku nk dedicatekn posting nie buat Gurl aku yg bernama Baizura...
Aku sangat sayangkn dia...dialah penyeri n pelengkap hidup aku yang tak seberape nie..
kowang cuba tgk gf aku nie...mana ar aku tak jatuh cinta...rupe dia pn dah buat aku jth cinta kali pertama aku tgk dia...

Diam n sekilas luahan...

Ketika ini,aku hnya mmpu mendiamkn diri.ntah mengapa aku buat begini,aku pun x mengerti...aku sedang mencari apa yg aku inginkn sebenarnya..

Aku tahu,perbuatan ku ini bakal mengundang sesuatu..tapi biarlah...

Yang pasti,aku sangat sayang pada org2 yang aku sayang,aku sangat mencintai dia,patuh pada parents ku,serta hargai kawan-kawan..

Without them...i've got no life..so i need them all...

SORRY

Dear syg,i am sorry for not being there for u when u need me the most..i felt so sad n useless as ur bf...
I really didnt know dat u had to go for med checkup..if i knew,im sure i'l b there 4 u.
Syg,u r my everything...n i would do everything just for u.n im doing everything for u,jst to be wit u....
Syg,i hope u will not give up n plz put on hope in me coz i really2 love u sincerely n truly...

I love u forever...

BECK...R.I.P...

Dear blog...last sunday morning was one of my saddest moment. Beck (my one and only cat passed away).I assume he died one or two days back...we found his body under the beetle.im so deeply sad because before he died, he was wit the other night..he was normal...being so close wit me...even sleep besides me...

when i knew he was no more alive...i nearly in tears coz he is my only pet dat i really took care of...when ever he is hungry, i will feed him when ever i can...he was wit us since 2003 n he was a kitten dat time...

then i had to dig a small grave to burry him..took quite sumtime to dig a hone coz the compound was small n was full of Mama's plants...and when i finish digging da grave....i put Beck inside.as i cover him wit soil, i shed in tears coz it reminds me of the ones i love will eventually leave me sumday...i'm so sad if i couldn't do much towards the ones i love... i will regret it for the rest of my life...it make me realize dat i've not done much towards them.

I just hope i could treat the ones i love with full of love, care n tenderness. i really do hope so.Let this moment be a lesson to me...


Beck, may u rest in peace....
2003-2008

6th month anniversary!

Dear blog...

Just wanna let u know dat today is our 6th Month Anniversary me n my lovely angel Baizura..

Syg angel,
i just wanna let u know dat,i really appreciate ur love,ur care,ur understanding etc...i want to let u know how much i love u.

Syg lucifer,
i know i've not been a gud bf,been bz wit work,less quality time together,sumtimes ignoring ur feelin n the much more devilish thngs dat i had done...i just wanna say...i wil improve myself to be better..i wil coz i really2 love u my love..

Sygku baizura,
i hope this is just da beginning of our journey coz my hope is dat we can be together one day spending da rest of our precious love towards each other,forever n ever...

I love u BaizurAngeLucifer...

Balik kampung!

Kg sungai balai darat,bagan datoh,perak...

Hari ni,aku bakal bwak family aku blik kg(ni as per kol 8am pnya post)


smpai dh aku kt kg..dgn keta aku...aku yg g snirik..stelah 15 thn x blik kg...giler kn...msti ada org ckp aku org bandar lupe diri..tp bkn cmtu..x dpt g..coz bpa kesygan aku x penah nk bwk.ada je hal...

Smpai je kt kg,aku cri masjid dpn umah aruah mbah(nenek dlm bhsa jowo).rasa hiba pn ada coz aku cuma igt2 lupe kg.maklum la lama x blik..mcm2 perubahan dh ada...

Aku rasa taun ni cm lebih bmakna coz dpt rya kt umah gf ku yg ku sygi my lovely honey bunny Baizura,dpt blik kg mama..eh best lah...ni sabtu ni plak nk blik kg baizura,ami ajk..best nyer...ngee...terserlah ke gatz aku...huhu...

Selamat Hari Raya!

Waa...dh raya dah...kejap je kan...aku tau raya ni mmg best la coz dpt raya bsama yg tersayang,family smua ada...sygku baizura yg ku cintai serta family yg lain..

Lama dh aku x raya di samping kekasih coz dh 2-3 thn menyingle..ngee...tp tis time its special..im wit her..best nyer..
Mlm td smpt g umah dia visit family n mesti la nk jmpe dia..i love her so much.pd aku,dpt jmpe org yg kita syg pd mlm raya,sgt touching...lebih bermakna..tatau nape..

Raya ni aku mmg x ckp tido,tido takat sjam je kot.kol 7am bru nk tdo.mana xnye,setelkn aquarium,kemas umah n mcm2 lg la.kalah thn2 yg lepas..

Haa..dgn ni aku nak amik peluang ni tuk menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun n maaf zahir n batin pd smua yg mengenali diriku ini..
Akhir kata...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI,MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN!

Selamat Hari Raya!

Waa...dh raya dah...kejap je kan...aku tau raya ni mmg best la coz dpt raya bsama yg tersayang,family smua ada...sygku baizura yg ku cintai serta family yg lain..

Lama dh aku x raya di samping kekasih coz dh 2-3 thn menyingle..ngee...tp tis time its special..im wit her..best nyer..
Mlm td smpt g umah dia visit family n mesti la nk jmpe dia..i love her so much.pd aku,dpt jmpe org yg kita syg pd mlm raya,sgt touching...lebih bermakna..tatau nape..

Raya ni aku mmg x ckp tido,tido takat sjam je kot.kol 7am bru nk tdo.mana xnye,setelkn aquarium,kemas umah n mcm2 lg la.kalah thn2 yg lepas..

Haa..dgn ni aku nak amik peluang ni tuk menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun n maaf zahir n batin pd smua yg mengenali diriku ini..
Akhir kata...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI,MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN!

Update blog?

Wow,u couldn't believe its my first time update my blog using my hp..at first i jst couldn'nt believe dat my lousy phone could be use for dat purpose...then,wallaa its done...
Now i cn update my blog anytime anywhere but wit a price to bear...huhu.
I guess technology plays a main part in our daily life....
Bubbye for now!daaa..

Letter To my Love.....

Sayangku baizura angel...
u, first of all i nak wish u happy anniversary yang ke 4 bulan....kejap je dah 4 bulan. I hope kita dapat kecapi kebahagian dimasa yang mendatang...

secondly i tetap nak mintak maaf kat u coz couldn't be there when u really need me. I'm sorry coz i couldn't confort u...i tot i did my best coz u know my situation, dgn mot0 tayar pancit...keta roadtax mati and few reason yg you je yg tau kn....i mmg tak dapat b there wit u....i really want to....u know i really want...

syg...i really love u so damn much..u know i do...its just my situation byk membuatkan i jadi tak tntu hala...got to settle lots of things...im in my critical situation now....i really need u by my side now...u r the only one dat i really2 need rite now...u understand me...u r my angel, u r my lucifer,u r my baby and most of all u r my EVERYTHING..yes u r everything to me now...

since i met u syg, i fell in love wit ur kindness and ur care...U are the most caring person i know. u care for ur family, ur friends and u cared bout me...i really love and appreciate it syg...i think we are ment for each other coz kita nie sama2 gatz and dats not all...we understand each other...ingat tak masa u tgh marah giler...i calm u down....n vice versa...we played our part..

syg, i know im not the most handsome bf u ever have, the hero u wants when u need me coz i might not b there for u when u need me, i know im not a sumbody dat can buy u things when u want,i know im useless......but u know wat...selagi i live, i will do everyhing i can to make u happy, to fill ur life wit love and to be ur Bf...i will do my very best syg...coz i know i love u...and i want da best for u sayang....i will do my best untill i die...

i dun care if im the last person to be there wit u...besides ur family, ur friends smua....but i do care bout u too syg...u know it rite...

u wont be the last person in the whole world for me to be with coz u r very special to me..i will regret it if i lose u.....

SAYANGKU YANG KURINDUI

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu

Disetiap langkahku
Ku kan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Life

today aku ak cakap pasal life....

sumtimes life doesnt goes as expected atau planned....kita akan rasa dissappointed dan kecewa kaw2...

but aku tau, tu sume akan buat kita lebih matang dan buat kita berfikir lebih waras mengapa kita perlu teruskan hidup....

bkan senang tuk berjaya dlam hidup,adakalanya kita akan dicemuh dah dihina....just kerana kita ingin berubah ke satu arah yg lebih baik dari keadaan sekarang...kenapa?tak boleh ker kita mengejar impian kita sendiri?masing2 mempuyai hak untuk mempunyai angan2 dan impian...

Kenapa ek?diorang jeles ker?...

paling penting kita berusaha tuk kejar impian kita tue....

Its Our Day Today...

Wow, diam tak diam dah 2 bulan aku bersama sayangku...

2 bulan yg bermakna dalam hidup aku...

bila ingat balik kenangan lama, kami mmg dah kenal lama..agak lama as a friend...7 tahun....huhuhu...tapi tak terpikir pn akan endup bersama....coz kami penah saling benci membenci...ahak!

tapi kini aku sedar,masa dah mengubah segala2nya... pabila dia tidak bersama, aku rasa lost,tak keruan & seperti rasa kehilangan sesuatu yang sangat berharga....

skrg nie aku harap aku dan dia dapat ar harungi masa masa mendatang, walau pe jua rintangan yg datang....

coz aku tau akhirnya kami akan sampai jua ke detik2 kebahagiaan itu...

love u so much baizura......

me n my dearest baby boo...

since aku kini dah mempunyai kekasih hati....
n im so in love wit her....
so aku nk abadikan blog aku nie dgn gambar2 sewaktu kami bersama...

baby, i love u..i love u so much!!!!

My baby lily...

I like the feel of your name on my lips

And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss

The way that your fingers run through my hair

And how your scent lingers even when you're not there

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh

And how you enjoy your two-hour bath

And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain

With everyone watching like we were insane

But I love the way you love me

Strong and wild, slow and easy

Heart and soul so completely

I love the way you love me

And I like the sound of old R 'n' B

And you roll your eyes when I'm sloppily off key

And I like the innocent way that you cry

At sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times

Listen to me now..

And I could list a million things

I love to like about you

But they could all come down to one reason

I could never live without you..

Love u sayang....