Diam n sekilas luahan...

Ketika ini,aku hnya mmpu mendiamkn diri.ntah mengapa aku buat begini,aku pun x mengerti...aku sedang mencari apa yg aku inginkn sebenarnya..

Aku tahu,perbuatan ku ini bakal mengundang sesuatu..tapi biarlah...

Yang pasti,aku sangat sayang pada org2 yang aku sayang,aku sangat mencintai dia,patuh pada parents ku,serta hargai kawan-kawan..

Without them...i've got no life..so i need them all...

SORRY

Dear syg,i am sorry for not being there for u when u need me the most..i felt so sad n useless as ur bf...
I really didnt know dat u had to go for med checkup..if i knew,im sure i'l b there 4 u.
Syg,u r my everything...n i would do everything just for u.n im doing everything for u,jst to be wit u....
Syg,i hope u will not give up n plz put on hope in me coz i really2 love u sincerely n truly...

I love u forever...

BECK...R.I.P...

Dear blog...last sunday morning was one of my saddest moment. Beck (my one and only cat passed away).I assume he died one or two days back...we found his body under the beetle.im so deeply sad because before he died, he was wit the other night..he was normal...being so close wit me...even sleep besides me...

when i knew he was no more alive...i nearly in tears coz he is my only pet dat i really took care of...when ever he is hungry, i will feed him when ever i can...he was wit us since 2003 n he was a kitten dat time...

then i had to dig a small grave to burry him..took quite sumtime to dig a hone coz the compound was small n was full of Mama's plants...and when i finish digging da grave....i put Beck inside.as i cover him wit soil, i shed in tears coz it reminds me of the ones i love will eventually leave me sumday...i'm so sad if i couldn't do much towards the ones i love... i will regret it for the rest of my life...it make me realize dat i've not done much towards them.

I just hope i could treat the ones i love with full of love, care n tenderness. i really do hope so.Let this moment be a lesson to me...


Beck, may u rest in peace....
2003-2008

6th month anniversary!

Dear blog...

Just wanna let u know dat today is our 6th Month Anniversary me n my lovely angel Baizura..

Syg angel,
i just wanna let u know dat,i really appreciate ur love,ur care,ur understanding etc...i want to let u know how much i love u.

Syg lucifer,
i know i've not been a gud bf,been bz wit work,less quality time together,sumtimes ignoring ur feelin n the much more devilish thngs dat i had done...i just wanna say...i wil improve myself to be better..i wil coz i really2 love u my love..

Sygku baizura,
i hope this is just da beginning of our journey coz my hope is dat we can be together one day spending da rest of our precious love towards each other,forever n ever...

I love u BaizurAngeLucifer...

Balik kampung!

Kg sungai balai darat,bagan datoh,perak...

Hari ni,aku bakal bwak family aku blik kg(ni as per kol 8am pnya post)


smpai dh aku kt kg..dgn keta aku...aku yg g snirik..stelah 15 thn x blik kg...giler kn...msti ada org ckp aku org bandar lupe diri..tp bkn cmtu..x dpt g..coz bpa kesygan aku x penah nk bwk.ada je hal...

Smpai je kt kg,aku cri masjid dpn umah aruah mbah(nenek dlm bhsa jowo).rasa hiba pn ada coz aku cuma igt2 lupe kg.maklum la lama x blik..mcm2 perubahan dh ada...

Aku rasa taun ni cm lebih bmakna coz dpt rya kt umah gf ku yg ku sygi my lovely honey bunny Baizura,dpt blik kg mama..eh best lah...ni sabtu ni plak nk blik kg baizura,ami ajk..best nyer...ngee...terserlah ke gatz aku...huhu...

Selamat Hari Raya!

Waa...dh raya dah...kejap je kan...aku tau raya ni mmg best la coz dpt raya bsama yg tersayang,family smua ada...sygku baizura yg ku cintai serta family yg lain..

Lama dh aku x raya di samping kekasih coz dh 2-3 thn menyingle..ngee...tp tis time its special..im wit her..best nyer..
Mlm td smpt g umah dia visit family n mesti la nk jmpe dia..i love her so much.pd aku,dpt jmpe org yg kita syg pd mlm raya,sgt touching...lebih bermakna..tatau nape..

Raya ni aku mmg x ckp tido,tido takat sjam je kot.kol 7am bru nk tdo.mana xnye,setelkn aquarium,kemas umah n mcm2 lg la.kalah thn2 yg lepas..

Haa..dgn ni aku nak amik peluang ni tuk menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun n maaf zahir n batin pd smua yg mengenali diriku ini..
Akhir kata...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI,MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN!

Selamat Hari Raya!

Waa...dh raya dah...kejap je kan...aku tau raya ni mmg best la coz dpt raya bsama yg tersayang,family smua ada...sygku baizura yg ku cintai serta family yg lain..

Lama dh aku x raya di samping kekasih coz dh 2-3 thn menyingle..ngee...tp tis time its special..im wit her..best nyer..
Mlm td smpt g umah dia visit family n mesti la nk jmpe dia..i love her so much.pd aku,dpt jmpe org yg kita syg pd mlm raya,sgt touching...lebih bermakna..tatau nape..

Raya ni aku mmg x ckp tido,tido takat sjam je kot.kol 7am bru nk tdo.mana xnye,setelkn aquarium,kemas umah n mcm2 lg la.kalah thn2 yg lepas..

Haa..dgn ni aku nak amik peluang ni tuk menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun n maaf zahir n batin pd smua yg mengenali diriku ini..
Akhir kata...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI,MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN!

Update blog?

Wow,u couldn't believe its my first time update my blog using my hp..at first i jst couldn'nt believe dat my lousy phone could be use for dat purpose...then,wallaa its done...
Now i cn update my blog anytime anywhere but wit a price to bear...huhu.
I guess technology plays a main part in our daily life....
Bubbye for now!daaa..

Letter To my Love.....

Sayangku baizura angel...
u, first of all i nak wish u happy anniversary yang ke 4 bulan....kejap je dah 4 bulan. I hope kita dapat kecapi kebahagian dimasa yang mendatang...

secondly i tetap nak mintak maaf kat u coz couldn't be there when u really need me. I'm sorry coz i couldn't confort u...i tot i did my best coz u know my situation, dgn mot0 tayar pancit...keta roadtax mati and few reason yg you je yg tau kn....i mmg tak dapat b there wit u....i really want to....u know i really want...

syg...i really love u so damn much..u know i do...its just my situation byk membuatkan i jadi tak tntu hala...got to settle lots of things...im in my critical situation now....i really need u by my side now...u r the only one dat i really2 need rite now...u understand me...u r my angel, u r my lucifer,u r my baby and most of all u r my EVERYTHING..yes u r everything to me now...

since i met u syg, i fell in love wit ur kindness and ur care...U are the most caring person i know. u care for ur family, ur friends and u cared bout me...i really love and appreciate it syg...i think we are ment for each other coz kita nie sama2 gatz and dats not all...we understand each other...ingat tak masa u tgh marah giler...i calm u down....n vice versa...we played our part..

syg, i know im not the most handsome bf u ever have, the hero u wants when u need me coz i might not b there for u when u need me, i know im not a sumbody dat can buy u things when u want,i know im useless......but u know wat...selagi i live, i will do everyhing i can to make u happy, to fill ur life wit love and to be ur Bf...i will do my very best syg...coz i know i love u...and i want da best for u sayang....i will do my best untill i die...

i dun care if im the last person to be there wit u...besides ur family, ur friends smua....but i do care bout u too syg...u know it rite...

u wont be the last person in the whole world for me to be with coz u r very special to me..i will regret it if i lose u.....

SAYANGKU YANG KURINDUI

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Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
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Kau genggam tanganku
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