omg...

im back after been away.too many changes that has happened to me.

im married,and im so happy rite now.i endup wit her.at last my dream came true!..its da best that happened to me in my entire life.


im being a normal person now,get paid working at a telco company


lifes been great for me.n very chellenging to.none the less,i've got wit me so im being stronger.

New Year...A new Beginning...a New ChapTer In mY liFe....

Salam Blog....
hah....i know i hav'nt wrote like in years already, but since its 010110...why not i start over again...

gone with da wind 2009 and all its memories, experience and emotions...

hope this new year would be my turning point to be better for myself, family, my angel and my biz...hope to learn the lesson made through those bad experiences, choices,results and bad decisions i've made last year and years before...

i would want to be better in many expect...life n spiritually....

may this year would be a memorable year for me.....insyaallah...

Thank Ya All...

Assalammualaikum...

Pergh...leh tahan lama tak bkak blog...

First of all aku nak ucapkan Thank You sesangat la byk pd semua yg wish Happy Birthday kat aku....Aku sangat menghargainya...Aku sangat2 appreciate smua...trutama kepada Sayangku NB yang sangat2 aku hargai n sayangi...kerana kasih sayangmu itu sangatku sangat bernilai buat aku yg tak best nie...syg, thanks for da gift...really made me feel confident and harum....gucci tu...ngeee.tapi syg, da best gift was u....u being wit me for da past and present...

n to all my friends, tak kisah kawan biz ker, kwn skola ker, kawan U ker, kowang sume mmg da best...Yang buat aku terharu ialah, kwn2 biz n sayang ku NB buat surprise celeb...kat ioi pas men boling....it was a memorable day...i will remember it until i die...sume kawan2 aku yg aku really anggap penting ada, syuk, is , daus, ida, khaidir, henry, ashuwad, sume ar....

Atara wishes yg aku leh share adalah, aku nak naik C. marquis secepat mngkin...hopefully bln nie...n hopefully dlm taun nie, preferably bln 6 jd Mq .aku harap aku dapat jd seorang BF yg bagus, jd anak yg bertanggungjwb n bntu family.kan best taun nie dapat tukar pe yg ptut.....bli keta ker, umah ker...amin...

pape pn, thanks all...love ya all...

paling utama...I Really Love u so much Sayang...MMMMMUUAAHHH!

Pejuang Impian

Lagu yg byk bagi aku inspirasi even bila byk masalah melanda...

Amy - Akulah Pejuang

Bintang-bintang berkerlipan
Indah dipandang
Bagaikan kilauan impian
Dimata seorang pejuang

Walau jauh namunkan tetap kelihatan
meruntun hati semangat seorang pejuang
jiwa meronta tanpa merasa ketakutan
akulah pejuang, pejuang impian

pahit maung, jatuh bangun
ku tetap bertahan
biar perpanas dan berhujan
demikian di harapan

biarpun jauh namun tetap aku genggam
takkan meruntun semangat untuk ku terus berjuang
jiwa membara tanpa merasa ketakutan
aku lah pejuang, pejuang impian

SORRY SAYANG!.....

sayang, kenapa u tak cakap pape bila i tanya....dat sunday i msg u,tanya hows things..u ok jer...then tetiba bila i tanya u awal isnin...u tnjk perasaaan...cakap i mcm2....ape nie syg....i kan dah cakap, wat ever happen, i will be there for u...even if i bz skali pun.tapi u ignore n buat lg...i tau u tanak susahkn i...tapi da prob is when u tak cakap, then u salahkn i plak i wasnt there for u.
bila i tanya u kata i did nothing for u...u blame keadaan yg i takde tu....

yes i was angry coz tetiba jer u salahkn i...i rasa cam u saje jer nak cari salah i...


pape pn lagu nie mmg suits me rite ar kot...

HEARTBREAKER

Look out
Look out
Look out

Where it's at (Where it's at)
I know karma's comin' to pay me back (Pay me back)
I'm with the sweetest thang that's on the map (On the map)
I broke her heart in 30 seconds flat (In 30 seconds flat)

Now how did I (How did I)
Just how did i become that kinda guy (Kinda guy)
To look at girl and lie right in their eye (Right in their eye)
My momma told me Willy that ain't right (Boy, no that ain't right)

I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break ya
b-b-b-b-break it baby
Look baby
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
I'm a heartbreaker
(baizura) You're a heartbreaker (x2)
You're a heart
(zayd) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a
(Both:) heart
(Zayd) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

Where she go (Where she go)
I got some things I gotta let her know (Let her know)
To fix the love now it's impossible (It's impossible)
But baby, baby if we take it slow (If we take it slow)
We can make it work (Make it work)
We just can't throw the love down in the dirt (Right in the dirt)
You probably thinkin' I'm a fuckin' jerk
'Cause the way I let you down it made you hurt (I didn't mean to make you hurt)

I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I'm s-s-s-sorry
I didn't mean to break ya
b-b-b-b-break it baby
Look baby
I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker
(BaiZura:) You're a heartbreaker
You're a heart
(Zayd:) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a
(Both:) Heart
(Zayd:) I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

(BaiZura:) Lets break it down
((Zayd:) Lets break it down) (x7)
(Both:) Lets break, b-b-b-break it down

(Baizura:) You're a heartbreaker (x4)
(Zayd:) I'm a heartbreaker (x2)
I'm a heart
I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a heart
I'm-I'm-I'm-I'm a

Sayangku Baizura

Arienie aku nk dedicatekn posting nie buat Gurl aku yg bernama Baizura...
Aku sangat sayangkn dia...dialah penyeri n pelengkap hidup aku yang tak seberape nie..
kowang cuba tgk gf aku nie...mana ar aku tak jatuh cinta...rupe dia pn dah buat aku jth cinta kali pertama aku tgk dia...

Diam n sekilas luahan...

Ketika ini,aku hnya mmpu mendiamkn diri.ntah mengapa aku buat begini,aku pun x mengerti...aku sedang mencari apa yg aku inginkn sebenarnya..

Aku tahu,perbuatan ku ini bakal mengundang sesuatu..tapi biarlah...

Yang pasti,aku sangat sayang pada org2 yang aku sayang,aku sangat mencintai dia,patuh pada parents ku,serta hargai kawan-kawan..

Without them...i've got no life..so i need them all...

SORRY

Dear syg,i am sorry for not being there for u when u need me the most..i felt so sad n useless as ur bf...
I really didnt know dat u had to go for med checkup..if i knew,im sure i'l b there 4 u.
Syg,u r my everything...n i would do everything just for u.n im doing everything for u,jst to be wit u....
Syg,i hope u will not give up n plz put on hope in me coz i really2 love u sincerely n truly...

I love u forever...

BECK...R.I.P...

Dear blog...last sunday morning was one of my saddest moment. Beck (my one and only cat passed away).I assume he died one or two days back...we found his body under the beetle.im so deeply sad because before he died, he was wit the other night..he was normal...being so close wit me...even sleep besides me...

when i knew he was no more alive...i nearly in tears coz he is my only pet dat i really took care of...when ever he is hungry, i will feed him when ever i can...he was wit us since 2003 n he was a kitten dat time...

then i had to dig a small grave to burry him..took quite sumtime to dig a hone coz the compound was small n was full of Mama's plants...and when i finish digging da grave....i put Beck inside.as i cover him wit soil, i shed in tears coz it reminds me of the ones i love will eventually leave me sumday...i'm so sad if i couldn't do much towards the ones i love... i will regret it for the rest of my life...it make me realize dat i've not done much towards them.

I just hope i could treat the ones i love with full of love, care n tenderness. i really do hope so.Let this moment be a lesson to me...


Beck, may u rest in peace....
2003-2008

6th month anniversary!

Dear blog...

Just wanna let u know dat today is our 6th Month Anniversary me n my lovely angel Baizura..

Syg angel,
i just wanna let u know dat,i really appreciate ur love,ur care,ur understanding etc...i want to let u know how much i love u.

Syg lucifer,
i know i've not been a gud bf,been bz wit work,less quality time together,sumtimes ignoring ur feelin n the much more devilish thngs dat i had done...i just wanna say...i wil improve myself to be better..i wil coz i really2 love u my love..

Sygku baizura,
i hope this is just da beginning of our journey coz my hope is dat we can be together one day spending da rest of our precious love towards each other,forever n ever...

I love u BaizurAngeLucifer...