Diam n sekilas luahan...

Ketika ini,aku hnya mmpu mendiamkn diri.ntah mengapa aku buat begini,aku pun x mengerti...aku sedang mencari apa yg aku inginkn sebenarnya..

Aku tahu,perbuatan ku ini bakal mengundang sesuatu..tapi biarlah...

Yang pasti,aku sangat sayang pada org2 yang aku sayang,aku sangat mencintai dia,patuh pada parents ku,serta hargai kawan-kawan..

Without them...i've got no life..so i need them all...

SORRY

Dear syg,i am sorry for not being there for u when u need me the most..i felt so sad n useless as ur bf...
I really didnt know dat u had to go for med checkup..if i knew,im sure i'l b there 4 u.
Syg,u r my everything...n i would do everything just for u.n im doing everything for u,jst to be wit u....
Syg,i hope u will not give up n plz put on hope in me coz i really2 love u sincerely n truly...

I love u forever...

BECK...R.I.P...

Dear blog...last sunday morning was one of my saddest moment. Beck (my one and only cat passed away).I assume he died one or two days back...we found his body under the beetle.im so deeply sad because before he died, he was wit the other night..he was normal...being so close wit me...even sleep besides me...

when i knew he was no more alive...i nearly in tears coz he is my only pet dat i really took care of...when ever he is hungry, i will feed him when ever i can...he was wit us since 2003 n he was a kitten dat time...

then i had to dig a small grave to burry him..took quite sumtime to dig a hone coz the compound was small n was full of Mama's plants...and when i finish digging da grave....i put Beck inside.as i cover him wit soil, i shed in tears coz it reminds me of the ones i love will eventually leave me sumday...i'm so sad if i couldn't do much towards the ones i love... i will regret it for the rest of my life...it make me realize dat i've not done much towards them.

I just hope i could treat the ones i love with full of love, care n tenderness. i really do hope so.Let this moment be a lesson to me...


Beck, may u rest in peace....
2003-2008

6th month anniversary!

Dear blog...

Just wanna let u know dat today is our 6th Month Anniversary me n my lovely angel Baizura..

Syg angel,
i just wanna let u know dat,i really appreciate ur love,ur care,ur understanding etc...i want to let u know how much i love u.

Syg lucifer,
i know i've not been a gud bf,been bz wit work,less quality time together,sumtimes ignoring ur feelin n the much more devilish thngs dat i had done...i just wanna say...i wil improve myself to be better..i wil coz i really2 love u my love..

Sygku baizura,
i hope this is just da beginning of our journey coz my hope is dat we can be together one day spending da rest of our precious love towards each other,forever n ever...

I love u BaizurAngeLucifer...